When Sh*t Got Real: A Note About My Mini-Sabbatical and Rejuvination
To my awesome community,
The last time I visited the site was exactly 2 months ago, to date…
My life had become, unmanageable.
I was consumed with so many tasks, so many things to do, and all eyes on me. I mean, these were all good problems to have (I guess), but I was so busy performing that I forgot to take breaks in between. I was so worried about the competition that I just didn’t give myself a moment to rest, and I paid for it big time. And as if that wasn’t enough, things in my personal life began to turn upside down.
I started getting sloppy, forgetting things, my email responses took forever, I was just overwhelmed. Everyone kept pushing me to keep going, but I felt like I was in the middle of my life screaming for a break, but no one was listening.
So I took control… I became OK with disappointing people, and decided to put my needs first… Hence my mini-sabbatical.
What a blessing it was! Social media became fun again, I wasn’t confined to a schedule. I didn’t have to remember hashtags or try to engage with anyone. I could focus 100% on my family and addressing the challenges I had to face with my precious son. I started going back to therapy. I took more naps, I answered emails when I got around to it, and most importantly, I had faith that if this was my true calling, if this was indeed the vehicle to my freedom, a passageway to my final destiny… it would all be here when I got back.
I needed a damn break! And I don’t feel bad about taking it.
We live in a society where people talk about no sleep, hustle hard, go, go, go… and it caused me to feel guilt and pressure to keep it all together. I had to step back and remind myself that SELF-CARE IS A PRIORITY.
I no longer subscribe to this. I take breaks, I schedule free time to do things that replenish my soul, and I take care of me. #PERIOD
So when I started to think more about the site, and found myself scrolling through those unanswered emails… I knew that I was on the mend. I’ve thought about writing this post for a few weeks now, but was exhausted at the thought. So now it’s happening, and the world has not ended.
To that end, I am slowly getting back into the swing of things. I am practicing mindfulness. I’m doing more yoga. Drinking more water. Taking full advantage of my days off and I am rebuilding my love and passion for what I was purposed to do.
I missed you guys!